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Going Through Changes - Eminem
I'm going through changes

I'm going through changes

Lately I really, feel like
I'm rolling for delph like Philly,
I feel like I'm losing control of myself,
I sincerely,
I apologize if all that I sound like
is I'm complaining,
But life keeps on complicating
an' I'm debating,
On leaving this world, this evening
even my girls,
Can see I'm grievin', I try and hide it
But I can't
why do I act like I'm all high and mighty,
When inside, I'm dying
I am finally realizing I need help.
I can't do it by myself, too weak
2 weeks I've been having ups and downs,
Going through peaks and valleys
dilly dallying,
Around with the idea
of ending the shit right here.
I'm hatin' my reflection
I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors,
I can't stand what I look like, yeah
I look fat, but what do I care?
I give a fuck, only thing I fear, is Hailie,
I'm afraid if I close my eyes I might see her,
Shit..
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes

I lock myself in the bedroom
bathroom, nappin' at noon,
Yeah dad's in a bad mood
he's always snappin' at you.
Marshall what happened at you
you can't stop with these pills,
And you've fallen off with your skills
and your own fans are laughin' at you.
It become a problem
you're too pussy to tackle, get up,
Be a man, stand
a real man woulda had this shit handled.
Know you just had your heart
ripped out and crushed,
They say Proof just flipped out
homie just swift out and bust,
Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that
He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at
no-body, he fights first,
But dwellin' on it only
makes the night worse,
Now I'm poppin Vic's
perks and Methadone pills.
Yeah Em, tight verse, you killed it,
Fuckin' drug dealers hang
around me like "yes man",
And they gon' do whatever I says when
I says it
It's in their best interest to
protect their investment.
And I just lost my fuckin' best friend
so fuck it, I guess then
I'm going through changes
Don't know what I'm going through
but I just keep on going through changes

My friends just can't understand this new me,
That's understandable man
but just think how bananas you'd be,
You'd be an animal too
if you were trapped in this fame
and caged in it like a zoo.
And everybody's lookin' at you
what you want me to do,
I'm startin' to live like a recluse
and the truth is,
Fame startin' to give me an excuse
to be at a all time low.
I sit alone in my home theatre
watchin' the same damn DVD,
Of the first tour, the last tour
he was still alive.
And it hurt sore, fast forward, sleepin'
pills'll make me feel alright.
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night,
I just take a couple more
yeah you're motherfuckin' right,
I ain't slowin' down for no one
I am almost homeward bound.
Almost in a coma, yeah homie come on
don't look now,
Daddy, don't you die on me, daddy
better hold your ground.
Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice,
Yeah baby hold me down.
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes

Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes
plus somehow I'm pullin' through.
Swear when I come back
I'm a be bulletproof.
I'm a do it just for Proof
I think I should state a few,
Facts, cause I may not get
a chance again to say the truth.
Shit it just hit me that what
if I would notta made it through
I think about the things
I would never got to say to you,
I'd never get to make it right
so here's what I came to do.
Hailie this one is for you
Whitney and Alaina too,
I still love your mother
that'll never change,
Think about her every day
we just could never get it together.
Hey, wish there was a better way
for me to say it,
But I swear on everything
I'd do anything for her on anyday.
There are just too many things
to explain, when it rains,
Guess it pours, yes it does
wish there wasn't any pain.
But I can't pretend there ain't
I ain't placin' any blame,
I ain't pointin' fingers
heaven knows there never been a saint.
I know it just feels like
we just pissed away our history,
But just today
I looked at your picture
almost hate to say,
I miss you self consciously
wish it didn't end this way.
But I just had to get away
don't know why
I don't know what else to say, I guess
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes